I love you much
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Sorry, for always asking that question.
I love you much..
I am just afraid to loose you.
My precious boy.
I love you much.
So i live like this,,, life like this..
Every single days I just can dream, how does it feel whe wakes up, i see u on my side.
How does it feel, lasting time with you.
Grow old with you.
How does it feel
Bein your roommate
Cooking for you..
Sometimes i was afraid, so i usualy got joke, if u not with me, if there are somebody else for you..
Its just because, u told me, never put my wish on u.
I just cover all my dream with that..
I wish u know..
There is nothin than u..
I just love you,
Just want u,
I just pretend to be happy every single day here.
Last moment of my happiness is on sept 2012. When i am with you.. lookin u in reality.. not just hear your voice...
I love you.
May i can tell to my self that yes. There is nothin but me on u ?
I love u bi,,
Wish soon i can erase this distance, and i'll jump the time, so i can wakes up with our wedding ring on my finger.
I'll be patience for that.
I promise.
I love you bi.
Always <3
cry
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i want to cry.. i wanna cry.. i have cry yesterday.. when the light off...
i am tired o cry..
i have no place to go..
i am tired..
boring...
i hate youu
i hateeeeee
i am a girlma woman
althought i act as wonder woman..
can stand alonee..
i still a girl.. need care from you...
now.
i dont care.
if u are not change..
i am theone who will change..
in the end.
dont be sorry.
Im not crazy.... Im just a little bit unwell ;)
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bored ?
alone ?
thats are part of my days now...
lucky, i have autish side..
i can do anything when i am alone...
hmmm.. i think, marry its solution or this...
but i should a little more patience for that day to come :)
holiday ~ lonely
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i'm not interestin in holiday..
why?
because i am a lonely creature on holiday..
my friends are busycwith them world.. boys.. family.. or anything else except me.. i understand it.. of course.. i love all of them :)
my boys are busy with his job or friends... prefer choose holiday with friends rather thn me... because were not gettin maried yet. i should understand this cause..
family? i am not rich family.. we never have holiday together..
then ?
thats why i ver like holiday...
but. when I was bein a banker.. i need holiday.. works are exhaustin.. ke me tired.. less sleep..
so? now, what i do for hoiday ?
if i have plan. i will do... if not, its time to sleep :)
I am sad actually.. but, I should keep smile. stay strong :)
someday.. i will have a 'him' who wil makes me never feel lonely when holidays come..
comin soon baby.. I am Waitin.. my future husband..
ps: i wish he is you.. my febri ferdian :')
to u..
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your a song.. written by the hand of God...
my febri..
tired of distance...
but my love is big than tired...
why you make me like this ? (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
i love you sooo
we always learn day by day, to understand each other....
wish we'll find a way.. to erase this distance :)
love you always (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
my pray
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one day in the past...
i ever talk to Allah
Allah, Im tired tocalways think about money.. my happinees...
one day in the future...
i want to life happily...
bein rich...
but, i know
life is impossible without problem....
That's why
If I allow to choose...
How about wondering others?
Now...
I know
Allah is listen to me
I have money, although not much, but enough
I have move on on love.. Family..
But, dunno why, I always wondering others
More than myself...
Sometimes I forget mines..
I sacrifice mine
But,
I always happy... when it works..
Others achieve them goals..
Others feeling happy..
Thank Allah.. you proved my pray...
Love you :-)
PS:
Dont forget to pray. Because Allah always listen.. no matters how weird your prays
the result of pretend bein happy ┐(￣ヘ￣)┌ ﾌｩｩ~
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its about 2 month
i try to live happy !
since i go there.. just to know do i really love you do i happy with you ? do u love me, or you happy with me...?
i just found that i love you much.
grow day by day...
gettin biggerr..bigger...
and you?
i dont know.. i just found that you didnt hate me..
wishyou love me much too..
（＾ｖ＾）
there is something that i realize..
that love s blind.
live is dreamin
love is imagine u can do anythin that imposible..
i think i love you much..
since that day..
on my way here i was thinkin..
・・・(__).。oＯ
how about if i change?
stop comlplain..
stop negative thinkin
stop cryin
stop askin...
then...
i looks more happy..
no one know what i really feel..
even you!
i try to stand all by my self..
but, like old quote. 'others will never know until you share, until you tell'
so i just looks happy... and my relationship with others are good...
but inside ?
should i keep it always ? and pretend that everythin is good :)
i write because i have no place to tell..
how lonely this smiley face
（＾ｖ＾）
to day i was sad.. actally since 2nite before..
while i plan on february to go there..
but,
you already hav plan with your friends.
again.
its not the first, second, or third..
hmm
may be i should forget all my wish..
all i have plan..
i am alone..
no on happy with me.
am not interestin..
am bored?
sorry to disturb all life...
may be its time to me. to my. to mine...
to enjoy the word called lonely..
i am sad..
wish someday there is some one
who enjoy time with me..
who want to be always with me..
who put me on first..
some one who wipe this tears...
（＾ｖ＾）
to my blog
thanks...
to always listen.. what i write.
(#^.^#)
New place
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Here me now ....
On one place that i never want to be here..
Here i am.
I will achieve my dream...
:-)
I Love
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when I'm Alone ..
i walk where ever i want..
with my feet..
my hand..
my eye..
and my brain..
i used to cry alone..
but, it's just few time for now.
I grew up !
can think when i should cry. or just smile, n drop my tear inside..
but I still me, sensitive feels..
I Love To take Picture..
Alone..
With my world..
My friends..
and My Love..
I love Eat..
I Love yellow :)
I Love Games..
I Love To Listening Stories..
About Life..Yesterday and Tommorow.. Past.. Today.. and Future... Reality and Dream..
And I Love YOU :)
Yes You!
:')
spend 8 month in bencoolen :)
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Caution! My Grammar is bad, But I Like to use english, So do not Complain, just tell me the right one. :)
first of all..
:)
Pantai Panjang..
sunsets..
_____________________________________________________________________________ a beautiful sunsets :)
kampung nelayan.. the north of pantai panjang
in the middle of pantai panjang
with clear sand..
_____________________________________________________________________________ in the middle, beside sport centre..
_____________________________________________________________________________ in the south of pantai panjang..
_____________________________________________________________________________south of pantai panjang.. that used to say.. the up..
_____________________________________________________________________________many days of sunset i ever show.. i ever spen in pantai panjang :)
_____________________________________________________________________________Weekend ?
is time to autish.. walking, sleeping, eating, shopping...
all i do :)
day by day.. try to break lonelyness.. make some fiend.. visit some place.. n eat some foods :)
first..
fort malborough :)
nothin special, bit it is one of bencoolen icon :)
_____________________________________________________________________________in the up of it..
we can see sea..
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i wont give up :)day by day !
i Should Learn much Things..
Learn Much Thinks..
Thanks Allah
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the north of pantai panjang..
near kampung nelayan of bencoolen..
near China town.. a.k.a kampung
near fort malborough..
not too good.. not clear sand.. but, :)
_____________________________________________________________________________the south of pantai panjang..
harus lewat jalan kecil.. lewat hutan..
but.,,
many couple had them prewedding here ;)
such a Lovely Place :)
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Pulo Bai harbor..
So Lucky I ever comin here.. to take picture :)
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Weekend Alone ?
be healthy.. by jogging..
Alone ?
yes alone..
I don't care.. while no one know me.. I used go to Pantai Panjang Alone.. rent bicycle.. n cycling around the beach with smile :)
yes. a Good way to relax.. a good way to forget the reality for a while..
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Beautiful Jogging track :)
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bicycling alone..
bicycling with friend..
n music _____________________________________________________________________________
or just Walk..Jogging..
Running..
or just sit
look at the wave of pantai panjang..
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or some time aerobic :)
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EATIN ?
my favorite Place..
-SariWangi- bread n coffee shop..
i don't know why..
dont know what the magic of this place..
the magic of it breads..
make me can't stop to come..
When my feelin is not Good.. when I'm lonely.. n Hungry of course.. i used to come to this place..
and 2 this latest 3 month.. i used to come every weekend, at least once on a week..
i dont know when i will go there... i miss it Place a lot TT~TT
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my fav : vanila Mud :)
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my Fav too :) chocolate cappuccino with chococrunch donuts :* _____________________________________________________________________________
normal spaghetti..
bolognaise.. or meatball..
i miss it :s
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sariwangi bakery n coffeeshop~
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Finally i Found Pizza!!
the delicious one :)
this Place are opened in the middle of my period in bencoolen..
Thanks Allah..
to give me chance to try it taste..
-Dine n Chat-
really recommended place.. but it Price not.. :p
American favorite pizza is the best one, Beverage ? I recomend caramel frappuchinoo :9
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First Pizza in bencoolen.
Pizza rakyat..
I eat it with tears.. when I miss pizza so much :p
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Bakar-bakaran.. Bumbu desa ala Jhon Motor.. walau namanya ga nyambung.. tempatnya terkenal bgt.. buka cuma sore sampai malam.. di tanah patah.. rasanya ? Boleh lah.. harganya ? jangan lupa bawa uang yg banyak B)
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mie keriting siantar..
delicious..
Enak!!!!! found it Omw to Pagar dewa :)
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PINDANG!
sebenarnya makanan khas palembang..
but this one.. is (y) (y)
@Pindang Pegagan bengkulu....
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SOUP Onde :9
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the picture under this sentence..
is @ayam jawa timur.. in Simpang Lima..
many i have try..
ayam penyet pinggir jalan.. dan yg terbaik adalah.. Ayam penyet Didi.. di tanah patah..
but The Best of the best ayam penyet.. I ever try in my life is.. Ayam penyet bakmi tebet :| i cant stop to think about that.. i can eat that 3 - 4 times a week..
:'( i dont know where i could find it again :(
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I dont have All picture.. but tehre are some of delicious place..
- mie aceh omw to Kampung..
- Sate Madura pak Liha.
- martabak Alim..
- bakso mamang depan..
- pangsit Tris ( everyone from bengkulu know it)
- Mpek2 saskia..
- Mpek2 buffet Betty
- Barokotoo.. semacam foodcourt kalau di mall.. hehe :p
- and may taht i could write.. unhappily i dont have it picture :(
- and dont forget breakfast @ koperasi di bawah :D
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- manusia adalah mhkluk sosial, tdk bisa hidup tanpa bantuan orang lain ;) -
dari SD, SMP, SMA,, selalu ada theori ini..
make friends! is one of my task in bencoolen..
my first mate is Ayin.. Karina Ayu pribady, but unhappily :( I dont have any picture with her :'( She has move to jakarta n work there,, :'( but friend are friend.. thanks beinm my first friend in bengkulu ayin ;)
then.. @ office.. is fuulin with MR / Mrs.. just a few single person.. So ?
dunno how to make friend there..
then i meet this Cute Girl :*
Elin ;)
We use to spend our weekend with shopping or hair treatment :p
n go home with regret.. spending much money before =D XD
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Hobert & Anton :)
Bein my Big bro, Guard me and Help me Much thing there,
i used to Call them,, Uncle Galau :p
Nice to Know You guys :)
my stupidity ever x_x when go out with them..
_____________________________________________________________________________here is office mate of Hobert and Anton nice people :) need a lot woman @ them office XD
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@ Pulo bai habor with Hany Hobert Anton and Hobert's new camera :p
hany, the one and only girl @ Them Office XD
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Mbak Ariza ;)
nice senior.. treat me like real junor.. teach me much things :)
wish u life happily there.. :)like u've plan :)
_____________________________________________________________________________this girls 2 XD, Wait, Girls ???
woman on left is a Mommy from 3 Kids, but her body really makes me Envy!!
this 2 gals.. same mind.. suprise with reality here.. have personal responsible.. different.. but there is a same..
same pressure.. in different job..
and we always try to enjoy this world, because we know, life is once.. wkwkwkwk
_____________________________________________________________________________nia :)
my boardinghouse mate.. great to nknow her.. Finally..
after 3 month -_-
because of job.
same,
we are bankers..
that mostly all time for work.. and mostly weekend for sleep..
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tefi,,
my friend goin to aerobic :p
lets burn Our Fat!! >.<
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thats All.. :)
All eight month..
thanks God..
to give me chance to know about a city..
give me alot of close friend...
give me knowledge :)
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