moodaiudesign

me ?
yes i am,
i feel lonely
i feel tired,,
i make some friend before.
many.
but YOu! take the anger.
angry
makes me feel unhappy.
when i try to laugh with others..
all my friends..
you angry.
so how i can happy ?
and now, i choose to be a good girl.
stay home.
make a friend with laptop. TV. games..
and You ?
Busy with your world.
sometime i just cry alone. cry inside my blanket.
n give a happy voice,, for all..
I"m tired with this life..
when I will be happy..
feelin the happy...
just put my self the 2nd..
and others 1st.
but others ? and you ? I'm not the 1st.
you throw all ur freeday for your friend. for me ? Not! Nothing...
dont u know that its hurt ?
but I spend all my boring and tired days. For u. being your good girl.
stay at home, nofriend with others, no play in the night (the only time that i have)
but yes, I keep smiling, laugh for you..
Its hurt.
I"m sad. deeply.. I just can keep, share with my Choi (laptop) or cryin while huggin my pillow under the blanked..

I have  make a firewall.. so that no one will ask me, to go, to play around, walkin around.
its all becase of you.
But, whe u tell..
thats its better if i play around with all my friend,
you know ?
YOU LATE!
the time can't comeback.
i can't take back my word to others.
YOU LATE!
right now I'm tired. I'm tired to keep cry. cry. cry.
Alone.. alone..
goin anywhere alone...
goin anywhere by myself. 
for now, I just have one request.. please.. give me your time..
to meet me..
I put you on my 1st. I wanna be your 1st too..
not your friend.. not your Holiday.. or others except your family.
I'd rather choose lastin time with you rather than goin any wonderfull place..
at least, you make plan for taht.. say to me.. n show me taht you miss me. want to meet me. I'm your priority...
I just love you that much.
or may be because i never mention you that I'm unhappy. I'am Unwell..
I miss you Much.
may be God have another plan for me..

make up :

feelThatI'mNotALittleGirlAnymore..
n i should use those things every day,
its bored,
somtimei think i can be like before, goin everywhere with NO make up, No powder, lipstick, mascara..
but its me, I am,
i should make a good relationtship with this :s

 i miss me,
I am,
my pictures longtime no see me..
 But, Allah know, that i can do it all,
I can
Yes Iam

 look at me
me,,
yes me,
I'am
yup. Its me now, a little bit tired, with black area outside my eyes.. :)