Allah..
Hamba lelah..
Lelah menangis.
Lelah dg senyum palsu..
Dengan pura2 bahagia..
Berilah hamba kebahagiaan.,
Amba lelah dengan semua ya Allah..
Wedding
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Wedding?
Butuh min 70 jt!
Untuk?
-baju, 1, kebaya nikah. Resepsi.. dan acara lainnya...
-cetak undangan...
-sewa trnda
-sewa pelaminan
-sewa tukang foto
-makan
-sewa band
-tiket keluarga dr jakarta
-sovenir
-baju seragam
-beli kelambu
-make up penganten
Belum lg honeymoon!
#bunuh aja adek bang -_-
Between aug and sept..
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Dear you..
I see no stars and no moon on that night..
But,
I see you..
Felling warm beside you...
I know, we dont do anything.. we just stay without say something important.. just say anything meaningless..
But, do you know ?
How happy i am..
I was so in love.. i wanna be with u till the end of my life ....
I was erase all my selfish side.. all my sadness..
I just want to live happy..
Life happy with you..
I know. The answer is still ' patience'..
So that.. i will..
I will patience.. i will wait.. because i always knoe..
Allah have prepare a wonderful plan for us..
My bi..
Even the borderless sea infront of our eyes .. all i want to see.. is you :)
Dear Allah.. please give me more strength for more patience.. and give us way on your way.. :)
Who am i?
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Is it so easy gor you to say that kind of words?
Did u ever feel what i feel when that word come from your mouth?
What kind of woman i on your mind?
What?
I just love you much,,,
So that i hold all my anger,, alk my sadness..
I hide all from you.
But why,
You still never be the one who love me much..
Why
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Whats wrong with me? Why everyone who i love dont want to spend they days with me? Why? :(
Friends
Even you,,
wondering.
/
the reason why i can stand this far are..
trust..
believe..
avoid all negative thinking..
tired ? bored ?
may be i ever feel some time, but that feel comes whenever i wondering that u are not loving me anymore.. not because my love is disappear..
yes. I am that girl..
I never try to fight. to win a fight. to win a war with you...
i choose to love you..
and be a looser than to let you go..
i never want a fight :)
i just can wait.. til the day u propose me bein ur wife..
(what about wait u say that u are not loving me anymore ? )
i never want that :(
ever :(
even its exist. please say it soon..
its more better soon, rather than i grow old with my nonsense dream.
hmm..
a 'think' like this that i should avoid..
so that we can stay this longer..
more days will come...
i wish you never erase me on your heart..
and you'll never let ay other girl name stay on your mind. even just a second.
counting down, 3 days to go to our 5th aniversarry of dating :*
I love you :)
a heart of a oldest child :)
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hey you!
kamu anak keberapa ?
pertama ?
kedua?
bungsu ?
:)
perkenalkan saya anak pertama dari 3 bersaudara dari orang tua yang sama-sama ank pertama...
anak pertama dikeluarga..
dikenal dengan keras..
tukang atur
tukang suruh
egois
pemarah,,
menakutkan..
oleh adik2nya
:)
tahukah bahwa anak pertama adalah orang tua berikutnya setalah ayah dan ibu ?
anak pertama selalu berusaha melindungi adik2 mereka..
memikirkan adik2 mereka.. bahkan terkadang mengorbankan apa yg dia punya...
tahukah ?
kalau nak pertama sedang marah, atau nyuruh2 adik2nya..
itu hanya muka pura2 bahagia atau pura2 berkuasa.. atau pura2 kuat..
dibalik sis hatinya yg juga ingin dilindungi ..
dia tdk punya kaka yg akan melindungi dia.. tdk punya kakak untuk tempat menanngis.. hanya punya adik2 yg menuntut dia untuk selalu kuat.. karana dia tdk mau adik2nya melihat seorang kakak cengeng,,, seorang kakak lemah,,, krn kakak adalah contoh pewrtama bagi adik2nya..
bahkan didepan orang tua sekalipun..
si anak akan selalu kelihatan bahagia.. wlw dihatinya ada rasa ingin menangis.. rasa takut.. rasa tak mampu...
tapi dia tau.. adik2nya akan lebih membutuhkan perhatian.. lebih membutuhkan contoh orang yg kuat..
dan dia tdk akan pernah mau menjadi beban bagi orgtuanya..
dia akan sellau memarahi adik2nya yg cengeng,,
krn dia tau bahwa orangtuanya akan susah memikirkan itu semua..
taukah ?
anak pertama akan sering menagis tertahan,,,
saking seringnya.. bahakan saat sudah dwasa air mata itu sulit keluar.. karna sudah di set ! hey anak pertama tdk boleh cengeng! anak pertama harus mengalah untuk adik2nya.. anak pertama tdk boleh membani org tuany..
oh, how i wanna cry..
i need a care too.. but i choose to make my mom n dad to do not worry about me..
T^T
Yea.. thats me :)
#nowPlaying I Choose To Love You - sistar
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Let It flow..
its almost 5 years we're togeteher :)
i dont know,
do u get bored ?
do u tired ?
but, i know we always fight together :)
i love you much..
I'm not get bored.. I'm just afraid u get bored of me..
I'm not tired.. I'm just afraid U get Tired of me..
time can change me.. become a (must) strong person..
even my tear keep teary inside,,
even i (must) keep my tear inside..
i just wanna be with you..
dont know what my life for..
what my life goals..
If u keep away..
Once I have free time,, wish its can be for quality time with you..
Once I have words,, wish its just about u..
I feel afraid, to loosing you..
when feel u more away from me..
about marry ?
of course.
I want it :) but, I understand.. me, and you. different situation..
I just can wait till d day come..
wait and just wait..
day by day.. with me heart keep beating with you.
on Our 5'th anniversary of date..
please.. never get bored of me..
never get tired with me..
just please.. love me more :)
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I choose To Love you - Hyorin sistar
If you still haven’t known how I felt
I will love you more than anyone in this world
I will love you more than anyone in this world
I will love you until always, I will love you
Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world
I will love you
Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world
I will love you
I can arouse your curiosity by saying difficult words
I can spend this night with that common game
I can spend this night with that common game
But I want you to know my heart now
I will love you more than anyone in this world
I will love you more than anyone in this world
I will love you until always, I will love you
Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world
I will love you
Like this moment right now, more than anyone in this world
I will love you
I will love you
:)
I love you much
/
Sorry, for always asking that question.
I love you much..
I am just afraid to loose you.
My precious boy.
I love you much.
So i live like this,,, life like this..
Every single days I just can dream, how does it feel whe wakes up, i see u on my side.
How does it feel, lasting time with you.
Grow old with you.
How does it feel
Bein your roommate
Cooking for you..
Sometimes i was afraid, so i usualy got joke, if u not with me, if there are somebody else for you..
Its just because, u told me, never put my wish on u.
I just cover all my dream with that..
I wish u know..
There is nothin than u..
I just love you,
Just want u,
I just pretend to be happy every single day here.
Last moment of my happiness is on sept 2012. When i am with you.. lookin u in reality.. not just hear your voice...
I love you.
May i can tell to my self that yes. There is nothin but me on u ?
I love u bi,,
Wish soon i can erase this distance, and i'll jump the time, so i can wakes up with our wedding ring on my finger.
I'll be patience for that.
I promise.
I love you bi.
Always <3
cry
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i want to cry.. i wanna cry.. i have cry yesterday.. when the light off...
i am tired o cry..
i have no place to go..
i am tired..
boring...
i hate youu
i hateeeeee
i am a girlma woman
althought i act as wonder woman..
can stand alonee..
i still a girl.. need care from you...
now.
i dont care.
if u are not change..
i am theone who will change..
in the end.
dont be sorry.
Im not crazy.... Im just a little bit unwell ;)
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bored ?
alone ?
thats are part of my days now...
lucky, i have autish side..
i can do anything when i am alone...
hmmm.. i think, marry its solution or this...
but i should a little more patience for that day to come :)
holiday ~ lonely
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i'm not interestin in holiday..
why?
because i am a lonely creature on holiday..
my friends are busycwith them world.. boys.. family.. or anything else except me.. i understand it.. of course.. i love all of them :)
my boys are busy with his job or friends... prefer choose holiday with friends rather thn me... because were not gettin maried yet. i should understand this cause..
family? i am not rich family.. we never have holiday together..
then ?
thats why i ver like holiday...
but. when I was bein a banker.. i need holiday.. works are exhaustin.. ke me tired.. less sleep..
so? now, what i do for hoiday ?
if i have plan. i will do... if not, its time to sleep :)
I am sad actually.. but, I should keep smile. stay strong :)
someday.. i will have a 'him' who wil makes me never feel lonely when holidays come..
comin soon baby.. I am Waitin.. my future husband..
ps: i wish he is you.. my febri ferdian :')
to u..
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your a song.. written by the hand of God...
my febri..
tired of distance...
but my love is big than tired...
why you make me like this ? (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
i love you sooo
we always learn day by day, to understand each other....
wish we'll find a way.. to erase this distance :)
love you always (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡
my pray
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one day in the past...
i ever talk to Allah
Allah, Im tired tocalways think about money.. my happinees...
one day in the future...
i want to life happily...
bein rich...
but, i know
life is impossible without problem....
That's why
If I allow to choose...
How about wondering others?
Now...
I know
Allah is listen to me
I have money, although not much, but enough
I have move on on love.. Family..
But, dunno why, I always wondering others
More than myself...
Sometimes I forget mines..
I sacrifice mine
But,
I always happy... when it works..
Others achieve them goals..
Others feeling happy..
Thank Allah.. you proved my pray...
Love you :-)
PS:
Dont forget to pray. Because Allah always listen.. no matters how weird your prays
the result of pretend bein happy ┐(￣ヘ￣)┌ ﾌｩｩ~
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its about 2 month
i try to live happy !
since i go there.. just to know do i really love you do i happy with you ? do u love me, or you happy with me...?
i just found that i love you much.
grow day by day...
gettin biggerr..bigger...
and you?
i dont know.. i just found that you didnt hate me..
wishyou love me much too..
（＾ｖ＾）
there is something that i realize..
that love s blind.
live is dreamin
love is imagine u can do anythin that imposible..
i think i love you much..
since that day..
on my way here i was thinkin..
・・・(__).。oＯ
how about if i change?
stop comlplain..
stop negative thinkin
stop cryin
stop askin...
then...
i looks more happy..
no one know what i really feel..
even you!
i try to stand all by my self..
but, like old quote. 'others will never know until you share, until you tell'
so i just looks happy... and my relationship with others are good...
but inside ?
should i keep it always ? and pretend that everythin is good :)
i write because i have no place to tell..
how lonely this smiley face
（＾ｖ＾）
to day i was sad.. actally since 2nite before..
while i plan on february to go there..
but,
you already hav plan with your friends.
again.
its not the first, second, or third..
hmm
may be i should forget all my wish..
all i have plan..
i am alone..
no on happy with me.
am not interestin..
am bored?
sorry to disturb all life...
may be its time to me. to my. to mine...
to enjoy the word called lonely..
i am sad..
wish someday there is some one
who enjoy time with me..
who want to be always with me..
who put me on first..
some one who wipe this tears...
（＾ｖ＾）
to my blog
thanks...
to always listen.. what i write.
(#^.^#)
New place
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Here me now ....
On one place that i never want to be here..
Here i am.
I will achieve my dream...
:-)
I Love
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when I'm Alone ..
i walk where ever i want..
with my feet..
my hand..
my eye..
and my brain..
i used to cry alone..
but, it's just few time for now.
I grew up !
can think when i should cry. or just smile, n drop my tear inside..
but I still me, sensitive feels..
I Love To take Picture..
Alone..
With my world..
My friends..
and My Love..
I love Eat..
I Love yellow :)
I Love Games..
I Love To Listening Stories..
About Life..Yesterday and Tommorow.. Past.. Today.. and Future... Reality and Dream..
And I Love YOU :)
Yes You!
:')
spend 8 month in bencoolen :)
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Caution! My Grammar is bad, But I Like to use english, So do not Complain, just tell me the right one. :)
first of all..
:)
Pantai Panjang..
sunsets..
_____________________________________________________________________________ a beautiful sunsets :)
kampung nelayan.. the north of pantai panjang
in the middle of pantai panjang
with clear sand..
_____________________________________________________________________________ in the middle, beside sport centre..
_____________________________________________________________________________ in the south of pantai panjang..
_____________________________________________________________________________south of pantai panjang.. that used to say.. the up..
_____________________________________________________________________________many days of sunset i ever show.. i ever spen in pantai panjang :)
_____________________________________________________________________________Weekend ?
is time to autish.. walking, sleeping, eating, shopping...
all i do :)
day by day.. try to break lonelyness.. make some fiend.. visit some place.. n eat some foods :)
first..
fort malborough :)
nothin special, bit it is one of bencoolen icon :)
_____________________________________________________________________________in the up of it..
we can see sea..
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i wont give up :)day by day !
i Should Learn much Things..
Learn Much Thinks..
Thanks Allah
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the north of pantai panjang..
near kampung nelayan of bencoolen..
near China town.. a.k.a kampung
near fort malborough..
not too good.. not clear sand.. but, :)
_____________________________________________________________________________the south of pantai panjang..
harus lewat jalan kecil.. lewat hutan..
but.,,
many couple had them prewedding here ;)
such a Lovely Place :)
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Pulo Bai harbor..
So Lucky I ever comin here.. to take picture :)
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Weekend Alone ?
be healthy.. by jogging..
Alone ?
yes alone..
I don't care.. while no one know me.. I used go to Pantai Panjang Alone.. rent bicycle.. n cycling around the beach with smile :)
yes. a Good way to relax.. a good way to forget the reality for a while..
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Beautiful Jogging track :)
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bicycling alone..
bicycling with friend..
n music _____________________________________________________________________________
or just Walk..Jogging..
Running..
or just sit
look at the wave of pantai panjang..
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or some time aerobic :)
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EATIN ?
my favorite Place..
-SariWangi- bread n coffee shop..
i don't know why..
dont know what the magic of this place..
the magic of it breads..
make me can't stop to come..
When my feelin is not Good.. when I'm lonely.. n Hungry of course.. i used to come to this place..
and 2 this latest 3 month.. i used to come every weekend, at least once on a week..
i dont know when i will go there... i miss it Place a lot TT~TT
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my fav : vanila Mud :)
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my Fav too :) chocolate cappuccino with chococrunch donuts :* _____________________________________________________________________________
normal spaghetti..
bolognaise.. or meatball..
i miss it :s
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sariwangi bakery n coffeeshop~
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Finally i Found Pizza!!
the delicious one :)
this Place are opened in the middle of my period in bencoolen..
Thanks Allah..
to give me chance to try it taste..
-Dine n Chat-
really recommended place.. but it Price not.. :p
American favorite pizza is the best one, Beverage ? I recomend caramel frappuchinoo :9
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First Pizza in bencoolen.
Pizza rakyat..
I eat it with tears.. when I miss pizza so much :p
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Bakar-bakaran.. Bumbu desa ala Jhon Motor.. walau namanya ga nyambung.. tempatnya terkenal bgt.. buka cuma sore sampai malam.. di tanah patah.. rasanya ? Boleh lah.. harganya ? jangan lupa bawa uang yg banyak B)
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mie keriting siantar..
delicious..
Enak!!!!! found it Omw to Pagar dewa :)
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PINDANG!
sebenarnya makanan khas palembang..
but this one.. is (y) (y)
@Pindang Pegagan bengkulu....
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SOUP Onde :9
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the picture under this sentence..
is @ayam jawa timur.. in Simpang Lima..
many i have try..
ayam penyet pinggir jalan.. dan yg terbaik adalah.. Ayam penyet Didi.. di tanah patah..
but The Best of the best ayam penyet.. I ever try in my life is.. Ayam penyet bakmi tebet :| i cant stop to think about that.. i can eat that 3 - 4 times a week..
:'( i dont know where i could find it again :(
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I dont have All picture.. but tehre are some of delicious place..
- mie aceh omw to Kampung..
- Sate Madura pak Liha.
- martabak Alim..
- bakso mamang depan..
- pangsit Tris ( everyone from bengkulu know it)
- Mpek2 saskia..
- Mpek2 buffet Betty
- Barokotoo.. semacam foodcourt kalau di mall.. hehe :p
- and may taht i could write.. unhappily i dont have it picture :(
- and dont forget breakfast @ koperasi di bawah :D
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- manusia adalah mhkluk sosial, tdk bisa hidup tanpa bantuan orang lain ;) -
dari SD, SMP, SMA,, selalu ada theori ini..
make friends! is one of my task in bencoolen..
my first mate is Ayin.. Karina Ayu pribady, but unhappily :( I dont have any picture with her :'( She has move to jakarta n work there,, :'( but friend are friend.. thanks beinm my first friend in bengkulu ayin ;)
then.. @ office.. is fuulin with MR / Mrs.. just a few single person.. So ?
dunno how to make friend there..
then i meet this Cute Girl :*
Elin ;)
We use to spend our weekend with shopping or hair treatment :p
n go home with regret.. spending much money before =D XD
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Hobert & Anton :)
Bein my Big bro, Guard me and Help me Much thing there,
i used to Call them,, Uncle Galau :p
Nice to Know You guys :)
my stupidity ever x_x when go out with them..
_____________________________________________________________________________here is office mate of Hobert and Anton nice people :) need a lot woman @ them office XD
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@ Pulo bai habor with Hany Hobert Anton and Hobert's new camera :p
hany, the one and only girl @ Them Office XD
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Mbak Ariza ;)
nice senior.. treat me like real junor.. teach me much things :)
wish u life happily there.. :)like u've plan :)
_____________________________________________________________________________this girls 2 XD, Wait, Girls ???
woman on left is a Mommy from 3 Kids, but her body really makes me Envy!!
this 2 gals.. same mind.. suprise with reality here.. have personal responsible.. different.. but there is a same..
same pressure.. in different job..
and we always try to enjoy this world, because we know, life is once.. wkwkwkwk
_____________________________________________________________________________nia :)
my boardinghouse mate.. great to nknow her.. Finally..
after 3 month -_-
because of job.
same,
we are bankers..
that mostly all time for work.. and mostly weekend for sleep..
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tefi,,
my friend goin to aerobic :p
lets burn Our Fat!! >.<
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thats All.. :)
All eight month..
thanks God..
to give me chance to know about a city..
give me alot of close friend...
give me knowledge :)
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